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27 May 2002 22:39![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
veekI miss Riddler. We last saw each other a couple of months ago, and spent two rather bad days together, during which there were many misunderstandings. Things also came to a head with insecurities on both parts and wanting different things. Or, rather, wanting the same thing - I think - but there were trust issues there. Undeserved trust issues having to do with someone else entirely (grr). So we went from being high on each other's company to no contact at all.
I believe, the problem was the fear that I'd become "neurotic and clingy," like another person had. I didn't - couldn't - but the expectation that I would made me walk on eggshells, and made him kneejerk violently whenever I so much as expressed a desire to hang out (which was, what, every couple of weeks). Maybe I've missed something... or maybe not.
He went away on a long and pretty cool-sounding trip, and was back after I'd left London for a month and a half. I e-mailed him before he left asking him to let me know how the trip went, and he never replied. Granted, he's in exams and pretty stressed out right about now, but I am not kidding myself. Bleah.
I seem to have little luck with writers. Redhead, you had better not fit into this mold.
I believe, the problem was the fear that I'd become "neurotic and clingy," like another person had. I didn't - couldn't - but the expectation that I would made me walk on eggshells, and made him kneejerk violently whenever I so much as expressed a desire to hang out (which was, what, every couple of weeks). Maybe I've missed something... or maybe not.
He went away on a long and pretty cool-sounding trip, and was back after I'd left London for a month and a half. I e-mailed him before he left asking him to let me know how the trip went, and he never replied. Granted, he's in exams and pretty stressed out right about now, but I am not kidding myself. Bleah.
I seem to have little luck with writers. Redhead, you had better not fit into this mold.
